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I feel so bad for something. I have never said anything so stupid in my life.
So my neighbors have had their house for sale for like a year. I love these people they are an older couple. They have been so good to me and my little girl.
I saw an inspection truck in their drive way yesterday, so I called them. I asked if they sold their house and he was telling me how they had a contract and it looked good. On and on. I said, "I'm going to shoot myself." Like I didn't want other neighbors you know. I don't want these people to leave. ok so let me tell you what happened about a month ago and why thats bad.
We have a pump ditch for water that you turn on and off two days a week to water your lawn. So I saw that he wasn't watering and he usually turns my water on for me, so I went over to check and see if he wanted me to go ahead and turn it off. I go to the door, and she usually answers. It takes a while. He answers and I asked where she was. The conversation goes on and she is in another state. His head ducks, and he said that his grandson committed suicide. My heart stopped I didn't know what to say. And he almost acted ashamed. God for the first time I had a loss for words.
So yesterday not even thinking, I tell him I'm going to shoot myself! What the H was I thinking. I'm so stupid. He said no your not, and thats when in my tiny little brain, I realized what I had said. Shit. I didn't apologize, I just kept listening to him about his plans.
I called my parents and told them. My dad is around the same age. He said. "Oh shit, sis." Then he said that they are smart enough to know its just a figure of speech. It was a mistake, and they know I was just talking. I hope so..... My mom wasn't so nice. lol. She said I always tell you to watch your mouth. OK so I vented, I feel so bad. I would never say anything to hurt someone like that. Shit!!!!
Friday, September 4, 2009
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hey that sh.. happens, and to me it happens a lot, not to worry, it will blow over and be forgotten sooner than you realze
ReplyDeleteDon't feel too bad. One of my favourite expressions is "if you give someone enough rope, soon enough they'll hang themselves".
ReplyDeleteI still say it all the time, its automatic. Its like "what comes around goes around".
The sad thing is one of my friends hung himself. He was 27yo and had two kids. And I'm sure I've said the same thing in front of his sister and mother who I see regularly. Oops.
Also, I organised a competition at work one with "Hangman". Everytime you got a sale, you got to pick a letter. If you solved the word, you won a prize. It was a new woman's first day at work. She'd just had a year off. Because her teenage daughter hung herself.
I apologised when she finally told me. She was very forgiving.
ok i feel better now. lol.
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