Waking up in anxiety attack

Woke up this morning with my stomach going in circles. Kinda like when you ride a roller coaster. Its scary when you wake up with these. I thought that I heard something in my house but had my German shepherd right next to me and she was fine. I knew I was just hearing things. But I was like frozen in fear. Where your so scared your body freezes. Ok what do I do. Breathe, I had to tell myself.Because what I do is hold my breathe. Took me a long time to realize that I can stop these attacks by breathing. So I'm sitting here at 3a.m. writing this down so that I don't forget what I'm feeling. I have to get up kinda the flight mode where you want to run. But i tell you, If you do get up when you have them it gives you time to remember to get your breathing under control. And there is just no sense in laying in bed going through this. Try not to think too much. Although, I was just thinking about my dreams. I remember them, I was dreaming that I was going on these rides and getting sick to my stomach. So something was bothering me. Its like when you dream that you hurt your hand and you wake up and your hand is numb from sleeping weird on it. I do not have anxiety attacks as bad as I used to and allot of it is just the knowledge of what they are and what to do with them. I knew that I was getting nervous last night. I have so much to do today. I usually only do a couple things a day that are extras. Like when I pay bills. Some people get really bad anxiety attacks when they pay bills. So here is what I have learned to do. Instead of paying them all at once. I will do one or two a day. Get them done and stop. I try to make doctor appointments between me and my daughter only one a month if that. I make sure she gets hers. Mine are kinda a waist of my time after fifteen years theres not much more they can tell me. They just have to see me because of my meds. I take citalopram for depression. I think that's a generic. It is supposed to have an anxiety helper in it. And alprazolam, generic for xanax, for anxiety. I know what they say about xanax but its the only thing in the last fifteen years that lets me function. So many people have problems with the meds. When people call me i ask them what meds they are on and they say, well I was feeling better so I went off of them. OMG I have done that out of pure guilt several times. I really do think that some people can take them for a half a year and not need them anymore. Not me. Been there done that. And the guilt was causing me so much anxiety so I had to make a choice, I have a family, finally found what works and may be on them for the rest of my life. Its worth it to be able to function on a day to day basis. If I can get off of them someday that would be great, if not then that's fine too. I have to think like that. Its not those of us who have anxiety attacks that really have a problem with the meds. Well I think we all have some self guilt. But its also our family, husbands, etc. saying you don't need meds to get through this. How do they know? Have they ever had one.????? Do what you need to do for yourself because being able to just function is probably your goal if your going through alot of them right now.